Waiting

I spend my whole life waiting.
Waiting for people,
waiting for events,
waiting for something to happen.
I hate waiting.
Why am I waiting?

A brief bit of poetry that has just popped in to my head. Afternoon!

LIEBSTER AWARD

I have recently been nominated to take part in the Liebster Award hype that is currently taking place over a lot of blogs by my best mate and fellow blogger India Snow. I am delighted to have been chosen and, to notify those of you who are not aware, these are the rules!

1. Thank and link the person who nominated you.

2. Answer the questions given by the nominator.

3. Nominate 11 other bloggers (who have less than 200 followers) and link them.

4. Create 11 new questions for the nominees to answer.

5. Notify all nominees via social media/blogs.

India's questions:

1) Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

I'd like to think I'd be living in London, perhaps alone with a stable West End musical contract (though this might be slightly radical).

2) What is your favourite place you’ve travelled to and why?

Most definitely Kefalonia in Greece. It is such a beautiful part of the country. Utterly filled with serenity and good vibes.

3) What do you look forward to most this year?

LEAVING SCHOOL and pursuing what I love the most (performing arts) at college. Also spending the summer with my amazing friends.

4) Would you rather: be ugly and live forever or be attractive and die after one year?

I would rather be ugly and live forever. Appearance doesn't necessarily determine success and that is what I strive for the most in life. However, the sound of living for eternity is off putting.

5) Coffee or tea?

COFFEE. ALWAYS COFFEE.

6) If you could be any age for a week, what age would that be?

21

7) Which do you feel prepares you for life most effectively: university or real life experience?

Real life experience. The façade of university preparing you for life like no other is overly spoon fed to today's society, especially those of my age. Yes, attending further education extends your academic ability, but living through and learning by situations and issues educates you way more personally.

8) What is the first thing you notice about people?

Eyebrows and their ability to give eye contact.

9) Would you rather travel to the future or back in time?

To the future!

10) To what extent do you trust people? Explain!

I am the type of person who can read in to others relatively easily. If I feel as if I can tell you something, I will do so. If I don't, I will not. In my opinion, time does not determine trust and the alienated view that opening up to people you haven't known for 10 billion years is completely ridiculous. I'm unsure of how to properly answer this question, it all depends on who I am putting my trust in to.

11) Would you rather know how you’re going to die or when you’re going to die?

This is a hard one!! Either way I would be left with direly extreme paranoia! I think I'd rather know when, because if I knew how I know I'd constantly be trying to avoid it the reason, whereas you cant avoid a date.

I would like to nominate...

Hello October

Caroline Hirons

The Sartorialist

Evelinas Fashion Cafe

Ella Masters

Birdy and Me

Lily Melrose

Melon Lady

Stephi Lareine

Oracle Fox

Helloomonica

My questions are...

1. Live in LA or NY?
2. Night in with Netflix and Pizza or night out on the town?
3. Life time supply of Topshop clothes or life time supply of Benefit make up?
4. Would you rather be rich and lonely or poor and in love?
5. Sweet or savoury?
6. How do you take your tea/coffee?
7. Why did you start blogging?
8. Describe your ideal living space.
9. Keeping up with the Kardashians or Made In Chelsea?
10. Do you believe in karma? Explain your reasons.
11. Live a short successful life or an eternally average one?

Thank you for the nom, Ind. Enjoy xoxo

Nothing Much

I am currently in a state of self pity and sorrow cuddled up in my bed, with my room lit only by the light of my laptop screen and side lamp. In other words; I feel sad. It has hit me how incredibly inconsistent I am as I have failed this blog massively. To run a successful blog is to post regularly and keep your readers in the know, neither of which I do. Instead of rambling on about sadness and apologies, I am going to do what British people do best and write about the weather.

Thunder is caressing the hills of Southern England and an atmosphere of societal tension is arising. Even from the small, dark room in which I lay I can almost hear the elders tutting and the children squealing in sight of the gigantic flashes of lightening. Storms have hit Devon in the most beautiful way possible: not at all then all at once.
I sit motionless beside my window, gazing out through the condensation and mist as Ingrid Michaelson sings quietly through my laptop. The roar of the outdoors beckons me to enjoy it fully, as if I should be dancing in the rain and waltzing in the wind. I have always thought that there is nothing quite like the Devonshire weather in the midst of cold January. A certain eeriness is forever present. That is what I liked. The world seemed different for a matter of days, even if that different was the definition of local friction. 

Society rant

Do you ever stop to notice this world? How we are all cogs in the mechanic system of society and each do our place to make things right or theologically fuck things up? We're merely surviving in a world where we're meant to be living. "Well they're the same thing" I hear you protest. But no, you see, there's an awful difference between dressing to fit the norm and dressing as who you are. Between speaking what's on your mind and preventing irrational competition therefore holding those thoughts within. The difference between a step too far for the thrill of it and a step behind to blend in is offensively forgotten and we need to stop this. We need to live. Why should we simply survive by going to school, going to college, going to uni, getting a degree, earning money, fending for yourself for the fear of being forgotten when all we're actually doing is lacking remembrance and originality? Everyone's so insanely fixed on being unique that we're all ending up the same. Aspirations are turning in to merely chapters of a careers guide book and stepping outside the box is falling in to another trunk of normality.  Life is about forgetting what others think and getting through it, closely followed with the fear of the unknown as it tickles your back with anticipation. We should know by now that the people most remembered did what their hearts told them to do and not their lecturer. The people in today's history books fought battles, defended rights, taught unthinkable things. Those people are dead and decrepit and didn't sit online and let networks define their life because that didn't exist then and I wish things were still that way. That way, we would all be so much more focussed on what we want to do instead of what others feed our brains. Our planet is insane and to think we're wasting it with the fear of tomorrow breaks me. It's just not acceptable anymore. Society is a vicious circle of changing yourself to fit in and trying to be different. 

Current Feelings

I'm sorry but I just don't understand how someone could just throw the words 'I love you' around like they're nothing. It's hopeless. How could someone be so inconsiderate and deride another as much as to pretend they love them? Like, doesn't anyone else find that absolutely heartbreaking? Because right now I currently feel like I have a crowd of millions of people laughing in my face.

''Did you actually think he fucking loved you?''
''He cared nothing for you and that's all that matters any more.''

I personally could not lie next to someone and hold them close and tell them the world then fall out of love with them. Tell them they're beautiful then they're ugly enough to leave the week after. It's like giving a child some food, letting them eat it then asking for it back. Or throwing a ball in to the air, walking away and expecting somebody to catch it. I tried so hard to catch the ball but it smashed and now I am stuck on the floor picking up the pieces. I think I will be here for a while. Every time I pick up a piece you seem to throw another on to the floor. I can't find all the pieces.

I dont think I will ever find the final piece.

June Favourites

Hello, everybody! My posts have sort of turned in to a monthly thing now which is good and bad. Good because I have more to write about, bad because only 12 posts a year is pretty boring! I've come to grips with the fact that I am an awfully inconsistent person so there will be no fixed schedule for my blog! 
Anyway! Without further ado, these are my monthly favourites for June.

Makeup

This month I have actually been wearing minimal amounts of skin make up (foundation, concealer, etc) and it has done my skin wonders! Instead, I will wake up, wash my face or use a fresh make up wipe, pat it dry, apply a small amount of matte powder and contour then continue with my eye make up.
My favourite make up look this month has been using subtle enhancements. For example I will use simplistic eye shadows (browns, nudes or pale greys) but boost it with a pair of fake eyelashes. Using highlighter on your T-zone and brow bones also work as a great enhancement.

This is an example of the look I explained above

I would HIGHLY recommend Benefit's 'Hoola' contour powder, it works amazingly at its job and creates an incredible shadow effect under the cheekbones. For a highlighter, No.7's Illuminating Lotion adds a gorgeous shimmer to your face without looking too much. Instead of spending needless amounts of money on expensive eyelashes, I usually enjoy (dare I say it) Primark fake eyelashes. Eyelure's glue works a tad better but other than that the quality is fab and lasts just as long as any Eyelure pair that I would've usually used.

Music

I had been looking forward to June all of this year because it is the month that North Devon have their only festival; how sad! But yes, Oceanfest came to Croyde as it does every year and I got to enjoy some brilliant music in the most beautiful setting and company. I was so so happy because I got to see Natty; one of my all time favourite male artists! I also watched the likes of Nina Nesbitt, Newton Faulkner and King Charles, all of which are featured in the playlist/gathering of songs below. Simply click on the song to listen. Hope you enjoy!

Afrika / Natty 
The Hardest Part / Nina Nesbitt
Yonce/Partrition / Beyonce 
Pills N Potions / Nicki Minaj
Hear You Me / JIMMY EAT WORLD
Do My Thang / Miley Cyrus
Dream Catch Me / Newton Faulkner
Bedroom Eyes / Natty 
Habits / Tove Lo
Keep Our Love Alive / Afrojack
FU / Miley Cyrus
All Of The Stars / Ed Sheeran

Memories and Moments

This is just going to be a little gallery of some of my favourite memories of June, or small moments I really appreciated. I might also add in some quotes and little memoirs. Sort of trialling this right now so bare with me!

Spending time with my girl Georgie

Spending time in the sun, especially with my family

Attending Goldcoast Oceanfest

''Not everything is always going to be okay in the end, and that is the hard truth.''

Practising and improving my makeup skills

''Holding on to nothing is easier than letting go'' - Nina Nesbitt (The Hardest Part)

xoxo

Mayfair

Hello, beautiful people! 

As you may not know, I live in a small town in Devon called Torrington. Every year for over 100 years now, Torrington has celebrated a tradition called Mayfair. It is a long weekend that holds a series of events such as the crowning of the May Queen and Carnival queen (my sister!), primary school children's traditional may pole dance and various other activities that surround the town. On the Saturday, there's the carnival, which is a beautiful precession of various funny and cute floats from local people. 

It's a lovely weekend and gives the people of Torrington and my school a chance to bond and come together! It is also quite well known for its drinking, dancing, late nights and fun fair! 

Over the past year, my friendship group has expanded from just my school. My bestfriends are from a neighbouring school a little farther out from Torrington, but to make sure they didn't miss out we invited all of them along too. 

Right now it is Monday and I am bloody shattered. My voice has gone completely and I'm still feeling it from Saturday night...I had an epic weekend and wanted to share a few pics with you guys to give you a glimpse of how good it was! Thanks to everyone who made my weekend amazing! 

This is my gorgeous sister on her crowning evening, she made a stunning queen! 

Dancing with Leah's dad on Thursday night! 

Very tired and well... 

You can understand why...this is pretty self explanatory. 

Torrington Carnival Queen and Attendants float.

(From left to right) Leah, me and Ind with Leah's mum who took part in the carnival. 

Drinks in the sun with my favourite people.

Selfie on the Waltzers! Saturday night was crazy. 

I didn't get many photos as I was having such a good time, but I hope you like these few! Yet another amazing weekend with my bestfriends. :) 

Xoxo